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Hi Jaque,
I am concerned and sad about your situation. I think and worry about you and your problems all the time and I get so frustrated about it as if they were mine! My mind does not stop thinking and worrying about you especially after what your so called "Brazillian friends" are doing to you and want you to do stupid New Jersey strip and prostitution job!!!! And you still stay around them!! Now I am even confused and thinking about what you are about to do next. I really like you alot and you have no idea that I want to help you so much, but you do not seem to like to be helped! Sometimes I do have plans on how I want to help you and be with you, but you have to be able to let me help you if you need my help. I am mad at you because you dont want to listen to me everytime I try to tell you something and advise you. It makes it so difficult for me to help you. The first time before you went to Lebanon, I told you not go and you went, it didn't work out well because you only like to listen to your so called "cousin". Now you are only listening to your so called "friend" and not me at all. Remember that I really wanted you to come and stay with me at my house for atleast 2weeks and we try to find you a job with the hotel in white plains, but I can't put in my house with your friend, its impossible.
I like your friend, but she is going to make you have more problems and she is going to make me or no one else to help you because you are listening to her and sticking around her. You dont need her, she is the one that needs you and may be you feel like you want to help her because she cant speak English, but remember you also need help first before you can be able to help someone. Your life is first! You dont realise that she doesnt want to leave you because she is afraid you will forget about her. Remember, you came to America alone and you did not come with any one, so why are you making someone bother you? Its like you have a child who you cant leave behind !!! Your friend is so much older than you, she has children, she has travelled around the world she is very mature she should be able to take care of herself. You are still young with no kids and you are sticking around her? She will believe me or not make your life very difficult very soon before you know it. Leave her alone, let her find her way and you find your way. You like to help her, but you cant at this moment! You need help your self. She is confusing you. Do you really think that she would you help you here in America if you needed her help? May be for a short time, but soon she would probably do the same thing like your so called cousin in Lebanon. Yesturday, I wanted to spend time with you so I could talk to you alone about all this things and make you stay in my house for atleast 2weeks as I try to find you a job in a whiteplains hotel and I was going to rent for you a room to stay in after 2 or even 1 week for $500 or $600, but your friend as always made it difficult for you and you listened to her! I was so mad. Even if you needed to go so much, I wanted to give you atleast $200 to help you where ever you would be going next as you seem to like to be going every where looking for your so called "Brazillian friends". Well, I called your friends phone last night many times because I wanted to speak to you, but you refused to speak to me and now, today I have tried to call again this morning and you refused to pick up my phone and talk to me! I am not sure if you just dont like to speak to me or friend does not want you to speak to me!Well, that is ok and dont worry because I will not call you again and bother you. Goodluck to you and your Boston trip.Believe me, it might end up exactly the same in Lebanon, new rochelle and new jersey or even worse. So watch out and be aware! Bye then. It was nice meeting you.
I will love you and think about you always and I will miss you!
Goodluck in Boston and your trips around the U.S Tolbert.
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