My first week in Boston

My first week in Boston is only about looking for a job or go to party and drink some beers and eat a lottttt... hahaha... here it is the some picturres about my first week in boston.

Thursday: The corona beer, salsa, sausage and tuna.

Friday: Capitan Morgan with fries onios and chicken hearts.

Saturday: Fruit salad, lasagna and sandwich

Sunday: Spending the day on the beach

                       

well, that's my first week in boston just enjoy without a job!

Talking about my close friends...

Hey, people!

Let me tell a litlle bit what's going on in my AMERICAN life. So I have been worked at the foodtown supermarket as cashier in Mt Vernon, NY, all right!? But guest what happened?? they fire me. yeah! and do you know why? Well, more or less 1 month ago my friends from Brazil told me that they will come to visite NYC and they would like to see and I said; Amazing and it is ok I will try to take some days off.
Kind of 3 weeks before they come to I asked to my manager Ana about thrusday off  because I needed to pick them up at the aeroport, but she always telling me she doesnt know, she will try it but doesnt make sure about it and blablabla.... When the day came up she didnt give the day off and I got worry about it, but my friends told me it is ok they will rent a car and everything is fine for them. but any way I wanted to see them because I dont see since last year. After that I started to thinking about talk to the big boss and u know what? I went to talk to him and trying to see if he could help me out. So I explain him the situation and he undertood me and told me it is fine no problem at all for him if I get only 2 days off and he will go to talk to Ana (my manager) about it and and everything will be good. I asked him monday and thusday off  and he said ok.

I kept working whole weekend, but on sunday I went to work and my manager Ana told me I gotta go to work on monday at 11am and I said to her that I talked to the big boss about some days off and he agrees with me, but she got really mad and she said to me If I wasnt coming to work I didnt need come back anymore. I get mad because he supossed to tell her about it and she supposed agree with him. I was pissed of him cause he threw me under the bus and I got trouble.
U know what Did I??? I didnt go to work those days I went to manhattan to see my friends but I regret doing what I did. I didnt go work to see my friends but they arent my friends anymore it is everything different, I changed my bevahior, my mind and everything is different inside me I'm not the same person anymore I'm growing girl with different thought and they are all the same. Who come to american will never be the same again and that's true!!! My friends came here only to shopping and it is for me is really bored and they dont ask me if I'm ok or if I'm happy, nothing they just want to shopping and I got very fucking frustrate and I came back home so dissaponted. The only nicest I did it was went to MAMMA MIA concert. It was amazing!!

So, I lost my fucking job in NY and I lost my close friends from, but u know what doesnt kill makes me strong! I dont need friends like that and the life goes on!!

Moving to Boston

Hey, guys!
Tomorow I'm moving to Boston, MA because I lost my job in NY and an anothers things but I will explain you guys about it later by now the only thing I can say IT is:
BOSTON here I go again!!
;*

Brasileiros sempre compra com os olhos...

Brasileiros sempre compra com os olhos...

Nem sabem se o produto realmente e bom, compram pork acham barato, pork ouviram dizer q e bom, compram pork acham que NYC e igual a Paraguai. Pork todos os brasileiros vem p/ NY ou FL compram ate a mala estourar, realmente nao entendo isso? Ok, pode me chamar do que vcs quizerem, joguem ovo no meu blog, nao me importo, mas acho tudo isso um exagero, um capitalismo ridiculo, sem meias palavras, uma falta de nocao.

Meus amigos brasileiros que me perdoem a sinceridade, mas tirar passaporte, preencher um formulario com mais de 50 questoes, enfrentar fila ENORME p/ conseguir o visto, aguentar 12 hrs de viagem e ainda sentir um pouquinho da humilhacao por nao saber falar o TAL ingles eu tem a coRAgem de chegar em NYC, manhattan o coracao de New York e se atolarem em compras. Ahh fala serio! deixar uma grana aki em NY do que no Brazil. Todos falam a mesma coisa o Brasil tem que mudar, mas alguem investe no Brasil? Eu sei que vcs brasileiros que estao no Brasil tomam-no-cu todos os dias com impostos altos, mas se for por tudo na ponta do lapis, sai a mesma merda. Admiros os mochileiros, que saem p/ conhecer, se aventurar, compram, mas nao exageram. Eu sai do Brasil em busca de experiencia e oportunidade, pork o Brasil nao estava me dando o que eu estava procurando, mas sair dai e vim p/ ca comprar, comprar, comprar. Aff sem comentarios.

E ainda dizem: Qdo que vou fazer compras igual e essa, nunca! Gastam mais de 2000.00 ou 3000,00 dollars o q equivale a quase 6000,00 reais e ficam felizes.Ok, quem sou eu p/ falar? Agora eu pergunto? Vc gasta 6mil em compras no brazil? Gasta?I dont belive that, if yes good for you!!

Todos acham que macys, wallmart sao puta lojas, mas nao e! ahh mas la tem prado, versace. Hello, tudo falso. Meus amigos compram tennis da adidas e outras marcas que custam sei la 40,00 ou 50,00 dollars e sairam felizes da loja. nada que eles compram era lancamento, tudo de outros carnavais, os lancamento estao estao acima de 150,00 dollars.

E claro que tem muitas coisas aki do que no Brasil, mas nao justificar sair comprando igual a loucos, entende! Tudo se tem um limite. Sei que mudei, que a vida o meu ponto vista nao e facil, mas eu morando aki e vendo toda a realidade penso e ago diferente e nao culpo meus amigos por isso e nem os restos dos brasileiros, se vcs querem fazer viagem desse jeito torrar os seus money, that's fine for me! Nao saindo do meu bolso ta blz!

Ahhh Brasileiros chegam aki falando um pouco de ingles, tipo se virando como qualquer um acham que sabem o ingles.
Enfim... Vou parar por aki! ate a proxima!

QUEM RIR POR ULTIMO RIR MUITO MELHOR

Mas vejam só como a vida é,
quem ontem estava rindo de mim pelas minhas costas
Hoje virou motivo de piada...
Eu sei que é feio rir da desgraça alheia, mas...
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Não guentei!
E sinceramente...
Tem pessoas que não fariam a menor falta neste mundo...
assim, só falando...
Nada contra, nada, nada mesmo, magina

mas... se partir desta pra melhor, é lucro do mundo!

TENTAR ME CONTROLAR.

Oie gente blz!
Ca estou eu pra falar do bofe de novo. eeeh de novo!! Eh um tal vai e volta do caralho termina hj e volta amanha, mas ate q enfim tudo acabou. To na fossa, to triste, mas sei q no fundo foi bom p/ nos dois. Eu juro!! tipo assim, desta vez foi p/ sempre. O bofe NAO era p/ mim, tava nem ai pra mim e para o novo relacionmento, porq ele vivia dando mil desculpas pra nao vir me ver. Tava cansado, tava ocupado, tava doente, ou indo p/ phily e sempre me culpando de nao entende-lo porque vivemos num pais super-ultra-master busy e q euzinha aki tinha q entendere dizer yes for everything.
Ahh fala serio, ne!! hey, se quer diz se nao quer diz pode dizer tb... acho q ele tem outra? Sera? Ehh certeza, so vinha 1 vez na semana e sempre com as mesma desculpas.
Poise... Pior! Sabe qdo a pessoa te culpa de algo q vc NAO fez, mas no final vc acaba achando q fez e sente culpada por isso, mas q la no fundo vc acha q a pessoa ta te manipulado ou culpando por nada. tipo assim, o cara bate na mulher e a mulher acha q realmente devia ter apanhado. Hello, nao preciso de gente manipuladora na minha vida. quero ser feliz. aff fui ridicula muitas vezes em achar q o bofe tava certo e eu tava errada. Mas numa coisa eu errei e asumo falar de casamento p/ o bofe. Meu, ele ja achou q sou maior interreseira e que quero o porra do GREN CARD. Aff e logico que quero e quem nao quer?? Quem aki gostaria de viver num pais como um imigrante illegal, ngm! Mas eu tb gosto dele e isso ele nao ve e e aonde agente acaba brigando e como sempre nervosa e neurotica termino e xingo ele de tudo e mais um pouco.
Esta semana  foi diferente e definitiva eu perguntei p/ ele:
Pork vc faz isso comigo? Me manipula, fica dizendo o q eu tenho q fazer, me aconselhar tudo bem, mas dar as direcoes da minha vida, assim vc nao pode. Sabe o que ele disse:
Jaque estou aki mais de 10 anos e vc tem que aprender a escutar e mudar seu child bevahior. Whay?? me chamndo de crianca? q diz mais, ele quer drama free, sempre fala isso drama free.
Mas vcs acham que querer ficar com a pessoa, ta perto, curtir com esta pessoa e ser dramatica entao ele que fique sozinho, o cara nao entende as mulhers, e nao entende que to longe da familia, amigos de infancia e q aki nesse pais somos carentes e precisamos de atencao e que qdo chegar domingo eu quero esta junto ele diz:
Te vi na sexta no reason to see you again. ai eu digo:
I miss him ele diz:
u miss me? So take a train and come to see me. qdo ele diz isso me sinto um lixo. As pessoas dizem porque vc fica ai chorando? vai la e pega o trem, ate iria se ele dizesse Jaque I miss u a lot u wanna come here see me? Ahhh Fala serio!!sou crianca e carente mesmo e ele nao gosta de mim como eu gostaria, outro dia ele disse:
Jaque dont get me worry, I like u, but I'm not crazy for u. Acreditam nisso? Ahhh ele q vai a merda. No final das contas so fiquei com ele mesmo pork ele pagou o curso de CNA (1000,00 dollars) e me ajudou qdo eu precisei. Ai me pergunto qual cara faria isso por mim? Talvez so um cara que realmente gostasse ou que um dia gostou, mas nunca amou de mim.

"Nobody said it was easy.
 No one ever said it would be this hard
 Oh ! take me back to the start..."

Somtimes I want to give up and leave all the things and dont look at behind me because I think I'm exhausted here I know I'm young to feel like that, but at the same time I dont want to waste my time, many people tell me I'm not wasting time here I'm learning, but I have a feeling like Im stuck , maybe it is my imagination or my life changed a lot, but it is the way I'm feeling. I want to come back home, but I can't Like american always say and they are right: "you can't go home again" that's really true. It is hard leave home, but hardest come back home. This is worstest feeling that I have never had before. you guys know how I'm feeling, but the same time I want to be here forever. That strange, allright! But u know why? I was talking to my friend from Brazil and he told me he's making 700,00 reais a monthly in brazil. that's so bad! Can I make a question? how do people can survive with 700,00 a month? I know some people are pretty lucky and get a little more money as 1200,00 a monthly, but still a little for paying rent, food, phone and an others stuffs as cable, net, etc if you no have kids it is ok, but if you have kids the life will be more expensive and hardest in brazil, money for diapers, milk, bottle and etc. Any way That's not What I wan to talking about it. I'm here to tell you what going on in my poor fucking amazing life.

Well, I'm still working at the same place (foodtown supermarket) as a poor cashier, I dont like that fucking job, but it is over there where I'm getting experience as such improvement my skills, my english, meet people and making new friends and this is the best part. the managers usually Ana (mexican lady) they are stupid and rude people, they dont talk to the employee no have fluent english, but they think they are the best just because they're manegers and I'm employee, but I really dont care about it now my time will come and everything will pay me off in the future hopifully.

Of course If I had taken english in high school I would have a better oportunities job or if I have been born in USA I would not need a visa. that the problem I have found here every single fucking day, but here still better than in brazil, but only thing I'm sure I'll live here forever and one day I will be back.

Abou the CNA course I'm still trying to get the work license as a nurse assistant, the last time I did I pass the pratical skills test, but I fail the written test, that the only one I need to do again and I hope I will get it.